SEALE

True to my “act first, think later” nature, I woke up one day and decided to purchase a domain (which I pronounce as “Seale-ee-oh”) without knowing entirely what I want to put on it.

I do know I’d like to go for a digital garden vibe, so consider this the first seed.

When I was a child I wanted to be a writer, but my parents had sacrificed a lot to send me to a private school so becoming a writer instead of pursuing a “stable” career would be a “waste”.

Initially I pursued computer engineering, but my undiagnosed ADHD crippled me. Did I know it was ADHD while I was suffering through 6 months of a BEng? Of course not. All I knew was I couldn’t function. Without the rigid structure of high school and my parents’ strict home, all of the symptoms hit me hard enough that it felt as though they were trying to make up for lost time.

One morning, around 04:00, I was in tears after re-installing a virtual machine I had completely destroyed while trying to re-write some or the other driver. It was an assignment, but I obviously hadn’t been paying attention in class and couldn’t get my brain to focus on the textbook, so I was Winging It™. I sent my mom an email asking her to pay the application fee for a BCom degree and said I’d be home for the rest of the year until I could start in 2016. Then I closed my laptop and felt the biggest weight leave my shoulders.

I’ll be honest, I was failing miserably. I couldn’t bear the thought of the degree dragging on longer than the prescribed four years, so I cut my losses.

Did my ADHD suddenly become clear when I started my BCom degree? Of course not. Not even when a psychiatrist told me I had ADHD and tried to give me medication for it. I laughed. My brother had ADHD and I wasn’t like him.

I finished my BCom and did my PGDip part time while working full time. I got married. I finally relented to my diagnosis when I went to see a psychiatrist about my insomnia and, in the first five minutes of the session, she said, “I’m going to prescribe Concerta for your ADHD as well.” I didn’t mention a single thing about ADHD. I was 25.

I’ve been medicated since then and I’m a whole new person.

All that to say: I want to explore writing. Now that I’ve kind of figured myself out, I think I could give it a shot. I’m not sure what exactly I’ll be writing on this site, but it will almost certainly include more ramblings like this.

S